NATIONAL 7s forward Pio Tuwai finally broke his silence after losing the love of his life and number one fan Irinieta Sadria-Tuwai.
The late nurse, who was a source of inspiration to one of Fiji's most prolific 7s players, passed away last May to an illness that kept her bedridden for about five months — leaving behind her husband and their two daughters, Makirina, 3, and four-month-old Joyce.
It took 47 days after the death of his wife before the soft-spoken player was able to openly express his feelings and heartache as he resets his focus to win back his spot in the national side for the 2014/2015 IRB Sevens World Series.
Tuwai said losing his wife was the worst experience he had ever endured in his life but he had to move on for the sake of his children.
He admitted the blessings and protection of the Almighty Lord had given him hope to move on with life.
"The world seems to have closed down on me," said Tuwai.
"I was powerless because I had lost my best friend and a great motivator.
"From her sick bed she always inspired me to lift my game. And even when I am on national duty, she always called and encouraged me to improve my game.
"I always cry when I think of the struggles she endured and at the same time she continued to support me in every step of the way until her last breath.
"She was a major contributing factor to my rugby success and I will always treasure her inspirational words. It hurts to accept the loss but at the same time, I have no choice but to thank the Lord for his plans."
The 30-year-old said he had slowly recovered from the loss and was aiming to win back his spot in the 7s team.
"It was the power of Almighty God that enabled me to move on with life," said Tuwai.
"Our good Lord has opened a new door of hope to best utilise my talent for the sake of my two children.
"I will continue to ask the Lord to give me peace and courage to move on with life and most importantly, to win back my spot in the national team for my two children," he added.
Tuwai was part of the Golden Eagles side that won the Tabuqali 7s title in Yasawa a fortnight ago before helping the First Landing team reach the final of the Jezreel 7s tournament in Taveuni over the weekend.