ONE can only imagine the "what ifs" going through Lorna-Jayne Waqanivavalagi's mind following the takeover of Nairobi's Westgate Mall in which 67 people died.
On the morning of September 20, Ms Waqanivavalagi and her parents had planned to have breakfast with another Fijian couple at a cafe on the bottom floor of the mall.
But they were delayed and changed their plans. They, with other Fijians in Nairobi, decided to watch the Safaricom Sevens.
The group Al Shabab, which was responsible for the takeover, was linked to the Al Qaeda terrorist group. Reports say the militants had targeted those who did not believe in their extreme form of Islam.
The massacre at the Westgate Mall was terrifying as the Al Shabab went on a killing rampage from the car park at 12:55pm before stationing themselves at vantage points on all three floors of the mall.
Of those innocent civilians who were killed, one was a woman who was six months pregnant, and three were students who attended Intel College with Fijian student Daniela Yabakivou.
The mall, according to another Fijian student in Nairobi, was a popular shopping spot and hangout for them almost every weekend.
What if they had visited the mall that morning? What if they had been confronted by the terrorist group? What if the terrorists had found out that they were Christians?
"I can't stop thanking God for his protection," said Ms Waqanivavalagi.
"That could have been me and that could've been my parents. So many children died and so many people are hurt and searching for peace.
"What could anyone possibly do? I feel helpless!"
Ms Waqanivavalagi rents an apartment just around the corner from the Westgate Mall and the gunshots, grenades and screams haunted her during the bloody four-day siege.
She says since the takeover, she has had sleepless nights. She said she felt like she was in a movie, terrified because they didn't know where the terrorist group would strike next or when.
"I'm so scared that I don't even have the words to describe what is happening here in Kenya. I feel so powerless. I can't even describe what I am feeling without breaking down."
She captured pictures on her camera, too graphic to publish, of people killed by the militants.
Dead bodies strewn around the carpark trailing blood as they were shot down in the process of trying to flee the mall, pictures of blood-drenched floors and the bodies of the innocent victims.
She says she has also heard miraculous stories from the takeover, one particularly of a four-year-old British boy who saved his six-year-old sister and mother's life.
The boy had confronted one of the gunmen saying, "you are a bad man" the gunmen apologised to the young boy and gave the two children Mars chocolate bars and let them exit the mall.
"Life does go on here in Kenya and one thing's for sure, my God reigns and regardless of the circumstances we go through, He will always remain faithful," Ms Waqanivavalagi said.